FOMO

When I'm sitting in a bus I see everywhere telephones around me. Everybody is busy with texting their friends, scrolling through facebook looking what their 'friends' are up to, sending whatsapp messages and if you don't have friends you're playing a game on your phone. Nobody pays attention to eachother anymore. 
We're all so busy with our own things and getting sure we don't miss something more fun then what you planned to do tonight. We must and shall have the time of our lives, right now, no we can't miss a thing.

Fomo, also known as Fear Of Missing Out. The most occuring syndrome for us youngsters.
It´s almost an epidemic, I see it al around me. This got me really thinking, do I also pariticpate in this whole social thing?

Do I? In some sort I do participate in this. For example, when I'm planning to go out, I never say fully yes to somebodu who is asking me to go with them. I always answer with 'maybe', I have to look what I going to do but it seems fun... Am I waiting to see what is more fun to do? or is it just because I really can't decide because I'm a truely a doubter. Let I be honest I just admit that the bigger part of me does this because I want to see of there is something else to do. Just to neutralize things I've became aware of this and I'm trying to be more straight forward and just make a decision to go or not.

EXCUSE ME //

Hello, here I am again... I almost don't even dare to post something since the long absence of mine. But here I go! 

There have been some changes in the last couple of months. I've been so busy with my internship that my social life has been in a black hole. My work was my life and I had almost no time for the things I most love to do. Now that it is over I still find it hard to resume to my old life. I hope things will change in these coming days.

I must actually say that I have grown in these last couple of months, as a person and professionally. But does that mean that I've grown the right way?  I've grown more to me. Does that make sence? I discovered more what I want and what not, what I've done right and what not, what I think of certain things and what despites me. I've learned that it's standard that you can not say some things. It's almost impossible to find someone who is totally honest, everybody is pretending. They must pretend to be something that they are not, to match the standards that is running. I don't want to do that, I want to be honest. Am I going to be punished for that? I hope not because this is going to be the course I will be leading. Honesty to the end!! So here, let me wipe that bullshit from your mouth! BYE!

THINK IT OVER, AGAIN....

What I have realised the last period is that I am a thinker. I am aware of that statement and yeah I know everybody thinks. The difference for me is that I over think. I think things over. Before I say something, the subject is surfing in my head, passing by my inner thoughts, drowning by words and questions. I am mentally preparing for the words to come out of  my mouth.
Before I can say something there has to be a personal moment with myself and I.
What do I want to say? If I say this, do I offend somebody? Do they still like me if I say this of is this ridiculous? These questions are floating in my head. The automatic filter that is setting in my head before my mouth opens...

FUTURAMA

The future, plans, planning, the path of your life, destiny. In how many ways can you describe this and what has it in store for you? This all is so blurry, when do you make the choice that will define your whole life, decide the path that you will lead and how can you reconize such a big thing?
Another 'Question Of Life' and there is like always no answer to this, maybe a better explanation, I can't find an answer. I came to this subject because in this period I had allot of decisions to make, school, personal life and my *caugh* financial situation...
What I've learned from this experiance is that you can't predict everything. You can not plan everything. You  can preticipate for something to happen or could keep in mind that the decision has to be made but again you cannot plan the future. Ofcourse there will be things that has to happen in your life and there is no denying to it. Hmm the best solution that I could think of; don't get stuck in the decisions that you've made earlier in your life, the good and the bad. The bad; the easiest excuse to blame all the bad luck in your life and the main reason you can not explore the rest of your life. The good; You may think this can't hold you back in going further. When something or a period in your life is going so well, you can get stuck in this 'flow'. It's a mean thing because you don't expect this from a good experience. The most scariest thing about this is that you don't look further because you're so happy.
This does not apply for all people but this is what i've experienced.

hmmm this is an another blog about a the 'Question Of Life'. Maybe I should start a mini blogserie ;)